The chains on my mood swing are rusting...
Updated: Nov 12, 2019
Sooo...I may not be the nicest person to be around at the moment. Soz.
It would appear that a combination of drugs (sex and rock and roll?? Sadly not...), daytime TV and rarely seeing daylight, can result in one rather grumpy Hayley...as my poor mother has discovered! A caring and patient woman who has dedicated two weeks (as well as the last 27 years!) to looking after me, who in return is being moaned at, my mum definitely deserves a medal! At least I managed to make her a cup of tea the other day!
But yeah, all this recovery sure leads to a boat load of frustration and anger! And I think I have to just be ok with this. I'm not saying it is ok to be grumpy with the people you love, but ultimately it is ok to have a bit of a sulk. It is ok to not be ok! (Just make sure you get back to your happy self again eventually!)
Controlling the Uncontrollable
Who am I kidding, I am not controlling anything at the moment!
As someone who desires control of all situations, and strives to challenge herself to achieve the best possible results at all time, being told to rest/slow down/pace myself/let others help is simply awful. I feel pretty useless and generally a bit of a burden. And yes, I am fully aware that I have no choice over letting others do things for me, as otherwise I will end up slowing down my healing and causing an even longer wait until I am back to normal. But knowing this doesn't make it any less frustrating!
However, the only way to embrace and accept this is to trick myself into believing that I am choosing this situation. I have made this decision and therefore am in control of it. Sort of...
Having staples removed (this doesn't hurt by the way! I was nervous but it was just like little pinches!) and washing my scar - it is healing really nicely! :)